We live in a world where ten good deeds are immediately shoved aside and forgotten the second we make a mistake (which sometimes are not even that big).

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"ala english je, apa susah sangat"

Cuba belajar sendiri tengok sendiri senang ke susah.

Someone's father passed away yesterday. I don't know him well, but his child is a good person who brings smile to other people's faces, so I'm sure he's a good person as well.

I'm afraid.

Someone told me I remind her of sunshowers. When I asked why, her reply was, "Sunshowers are rare. You're rare."

It's been exactly six months and three days since I made that decision. And I'm glad I did, because I have grown so much since then.

Life, at times, is amazingly funny. Or maybe funnily amazing?

in this long night, i close my eyes again

That little star twinkling above, comfort me
Tonight is the night where everything collapses with no where else to rest

Delayed answer

Some years ago, I stopped hating people. Yes, I do dislike some people every now and then, but not hate. Not anymore.

A friend of mine asked me how I do that, because at that particular time when she asked, I had a strong, valid reason to hate this acquaintance of ours, but I didn't. I don't think I ever answered her question properly, and I don't actually know how to explain this feeling. Therefore, I'd like to borrow the words of a wise man I admire.

"To feel requires using energy. That’s why I don’t want to use my energy to ‘hate’ which is such a negative emotion, so I stopped hating people."


I guess that pretty much sums up how I feel. To be honest, ever since I stopped hating people, I feel more at peace.

I realized today, that I actually have three different traumas/phobias that people don't normally have. Perhaps they make me unique. Perhaps they make me a freak. But they make me me.