let the reigns go loose.

My mom votes for the first time yesterday. Mind you, she's really excited about it.

Actually, I was quite nervous about yesterday. Malaysians are getting wilder. We are not holding hands anymore. There's no peace anymore. I was just hoping and wishing that Malaysia will always be Malaysia; a simple yet harmony Malaysia. No arguments, no demonstrations, just peace. So, to have that kind of Malaysia back, I'm supporting the government. Yes, I actually do. Well, to be honest, choosing to support the government is the easiest way to have a good life. However, not many people realize that. They want to have the country all by themselves. Selfishness kills, actually. Well, back to my topic. I have a bad feeling yesterday. I know, Malaysia will not be the same anymore. My wish was not coming true.

Yesterday night, I was out with my cousins. We went to eat at a stall nearby. We were kinda celebrating one of my cousin, Abg Lan's final bachelor night. He's getting married the next day. So, after we finished eating, we returned to our hotel room. I was looking forward to watch the results of the election in my room, actually. We all do. But then, we were called by our parents' to go to my, um, nenek saudara's room. She wanted to show the hantarans. So, we went to her room and watched the results with them.

Sitting there not having anything to do really makes me feel and look stupid. Thank God the telly was turned on, I could watch the results. However, it's still early actually - around 9 pm I guess. Not much results were out. And then, after about 15 minutes, Abg Lan came in and told us that Shahrizat lost. And we were like, "What?!". I mean, she's a great person. How come she lost? Oh yeah, Samy Vellu lost too.

With no mood left, I went back to my room and performed my Isya' prayer. And watched the telly. I've been waiting for the results of Selangor. After waiting and waiting and waiting, there's no sign of it. And after watching Pas keeps on winning, I fed up. Like what I said earlier, I'm supporting the government. I waited till midnight. But still, nothing. Then, I thought, it's already midnight, and I'm so very tired after traveling all the way from Shah Alam to Tangkak, and I have to wake up early tomorrow for Abg Lan's solemnization ceremony, and I'm very sleepy. So, with tired eyes, tired mind, tired soul, I slept. Lantak kau la Selangor.

pilot

I have never been a friendly person. I am not a people person. Whenever I'm alone, I spend my time doing things on my own; like writing. So, hearing people calling me arrogant is normal; very normal, although I am not. (Wait, don't get me wrong. I do have friends and best friends.)

I don't really know how to talk to a stranger/outsider, or at least, how to start a conversation. People might find it boring to be with me, which is the main reason why I am not the It Girl of the school. Well, I don't really mind.

Nobody knows the people behind the name Shahida. I mean, the real Shahida. What does she loves to do? When is her favourite day? What are her dreams? Who does she loves? Nobody knows the real answer. Even my own mother. Even my best friends.

Introducing myself right now might be a problem. Because I always have problems introducing myself. So, if you want to know and befriend me, just say hi, and ask me about myself later. I'll answer your questions. Here's the hint on how to start a conversation with me; talk about music.