Monday, August 4, 2008

things happen for a reason

Why I cry on July 25th, 2008:

1. This year's birthday celebration was way different from last year's
2. Lots of problems with BFFs
3. Lots of promises broken
4. People all around disappointed me
5. People keeps me waiting and waiting
6. Hopes being broken
7. Fear of being alone, again
8. Fear of the old nightmare might be coming back
9. Worries about the future
10. Lots of misunderstandings
11. Jealousy that led to getting further apart from them
12. Fear of being left out
13. Fear of being betrayed, again
14. Fear of will never be understood
15. Fear of getting my heart broken all over again
16. Fear of losing everything
17. Fear of having to wait forever

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

this is what i think of u;
1. pity
2. pathetic
3. useless
4. soft
5. fragile.
cant think of wat best 4 urself. still hopng wen u know that it might b broken anytime. still waitng 4 nothing. cant handle ur emotions. ur just dont hav any idea of SURVIVING the WORLD. the real world is much more cruel than u thought n so do people around u. ur just 2 soft 4 me.

idzwan_phoenix said...

wow, anonymous is though on you..it's not fair..it's good being honest n clear with what's bothering you..at least u know the challenges u r facing..now is the time to handle tmen one by one..
1. bithdays come and go..ther's always hope 4 a bttr one..
2. wonder why u call her BFF if she's not willing to deal the problems u guys r having like any BFFs shud do..if ther's no will, then ther's no way, if ther's no way, might always walk a dffrnt path..dont u think??
3.happens all the time
4.happens all the time..to avoid it next time, dun expect much out of people..u shud give people same space for them to be themselves, not to be the version u expected..
5.-17.all ur fears n worries seem very personal..maybe it's about time u step back n take a look at urself as a person..most of the times, we're blind to our own faults..if u do that n still realise tht wat u believe is right, ur stand is correct, ur heart in the right place, then continue being the same person u r now..u just have to be more confidnt n proud of urself..stop thnkg about othrs n strt living the NOW..forget about what-had-been, what-might-have-been, n what's-gonna-be

Shahida said...

thanks, stranger:)

Anonymous said...

wat is wrong wiv u girl?
u asked for dat to happen..
keep on running away frm problems..
face em..
anonymous..jeez..

I THINK U R 100% RIGHT!

Anonymous said...

does anybody realize that I'm being stupid here well, I AM STUPID> this is what i'm going to do(if I can);
1. run. it might be the stupidest action u make but 4 those who r desperate, it seems right. like people said "desperate people make mistakes"
2. have an amnesia. forget evrything dat had happn 2 u, dat way u don hav 2 thnk of anything. but once u have amnesia, u start 2 wonder wat had happn 2 u. Stupid right?
3. die. FINISH. THE END.