roses

Ugly Betty open up your eyes
Today is gonna be a perfect day
Ugly Betty, what about that smile
The kind that makes the coldest heart melt

Oh how you bloom, under sunshine
What you are is beautiful
Far beyond what the others see
What you are is beautiful
Defined by love and the kindest soul

You're beautiful
Betty, you're beautiful
Betty, you're beautiful
Betty, you're beautiful

Ugly Betty, so what's it gonna be
Will you stand up for yourself or will you leave
Ugly Betty, the stars align for you
The rest is up to what you make or do with it

And how you bloom under sunshine
What you are is beautiful
Far beyond what the eye can see
What you are is beautiful
Defined by love and the kindest soul

You're beautiful
Betty, you're beautiful
Betty, you're beautiful
Betty, you're beautiful

Ugly Betty open up your eyes
Today is gonna be a perfect day

i can't take my eyes off of you

Last night, I forced my almost berkarat brain to work in my attempt to write a Malay song. So while thinking of some good words, the word "pandang mataku" popped into my mind. And then suddenly I was reminded of the scene between Vignesh and Endarah during the last Ujian Lisan BM.

Vignesh: Pandang mataku, anakku! (with two of his fingers pointed at his eyes)

And so I laughed out not-to-loud to myself like gila.

if the rain must fall

Sorry about babbling about GG all these while. But I can't take my mind off of him.

sunny days

Made a wish, I can dream

I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfill my fantasies

I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came I saw

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me

Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
(Sunshine) Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far

Sunshine

My star, my star..

starts with goodbye

I'm back. Finally. I think nobody noticed my missing (except Nico, just told him) due to darling my writer's block. Haha. Last Thursday I'm off to Kota Bharu with my Kakngah to stay at my aunt's house and I just got back this mornoon (morning+afternoon). Our tickets were booked months ago (which I soon regret) because they are tiket murah. Actually, I didn't really want to go, but I've never been on plane before the idea of going there by air was very tempting plus all the hasutan from my Kakngah, I agreed to follow her.

Living with my aunt's family had me into a lot of thinking. Well, to be honest I didn't really have anything to do there so I was forced to let my mind wander around. It was the first time I'm really away from my parents (minus the Khemah Ibadah last year), I found myself missing them dearly that very night I arrived. I was homesick. You may call me manja or something but that's true. I really missed them. I looked at my aunt and her husband and I thought, "Wouldn't it be nicer if Mi and Abah are here too?". I watched their daily lives, I listened to their jokes, I joined their conversations, and I realized although my aunt and my Mom grew up together (mind you, they aren't biological sisters), they are so much different. Our lives are so much different. Although it was a bit fun living there with all the noise, the (very!) stupid jokes and the maddening behaviours, I found myself kept counting down the days of my return to my house. I guess I'd prefer the quietness and calmness here. Maybe that's because I've been raised this way.

Everyday before I sleep I'd think what day was that day and how many days left to be there. I missed my Mom's soothing voice when she woke me up every day for Subuh prayer and later in the morning. I missed my Dad's loud and stir-causer voice when waking me up if my Mom was out. I missed having the newspapers ready every single day early in the morning. I missed my Mom's cooking. I missed the funny little arguments between my parents. I missed their laughs. I missed my Mom's sneezes and my Dad's snores. I missed following my Mom around the house to see what she's up to. I missed watching her cooking. I missed having to watch TV downstairs if all upstairs' TVs are full. I missed waking up to see my Dad using the Internet and feeling kinda upset. I missed having to listen to his classic songs. I missed calling him to sleep upstairs every night. I missed my room. I missed my darling computer and Internet. I miss my phone's headset (OMG how could I left them!). I missed having to climb up and down the stairs. I missed my super thick wonderfulfantasticbombastic Dictionary Yang Hebat, as I call it. I missed my friends. I missed the calmness of my house. I missed my life here.

I've been thinking, I only left for 9 days and I already missed everything like hell. So what would happen when I left later after SPM? If my original plan of going to Melaka succeeds then there would be no serious homesick problems. But what if my other plans of going to UNC or others instead came true? I can't come home often. Now I know how my brother feels when he went to MCKK years ago. I still remember his face when our car drove away, leaving him behind all alone. He never cried, but I know his heart did.

And speaking of crying, you know ever since I watched some clips from last week's GG, my heart wasn't beating properly. I didn't manage to watch the full episode and I have to wait after I got home to watch it. My wait shall be over soon, at least tomorrow. Watch these and you'll know why.

Oh Charles Bartholomew Bass :'(

why does it always rain on me

Blair: If you want her back all you have to do is tell her the truth.
Chuck: That what? I was stupid enough to have listened to you?
Blair: Yes. And then tell her what you really wanted to do. Get to know her, go to the movies, hold hands. And even though you're scared, you're willing to risk everything just to do that.
Chuck: Why should I listen to you?
Blair: Like I said. She's me.

wonderful

blue sands

RULE ONE:
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE TWO:Tag FIVE people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

ONE.
If your lover betrayed you, how will you react?
- Kick him on the butt like Rukawa:D

TWO.
If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
- World peace. I know it's kinda lame but it's all I want.

THREE.
Whose butt would you like to kick?
- My sister Dayang Nadiah Nico Nini

FOUR.
What would you do with a billion dollars?
- If I list them all here I'm afraid people who reads this will get tired.

FIVE.
Would you fall in love with your best friend?
- I'm not a lesbo like Nini:D

SIX.
Which do you think more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Loved

SEVEN.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Ehh

EIGHT.
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Back off

NINE.
If you were to act with someone, who would it be? Your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
- Nicholas Keevan Rajah
"Mane die Lambak? Mane Lambak? Die nak tipu aku ye? Hidup-hidup die nak tipu aku!"
:D

TEN.
Would you invite your Ex bf/gf to your wedding?
- Yes!

ELEVEN.
How would you see yourself in ten years time?
- Still have Dayang as my BFF:)

TWELVE.
What's your greatest fear?
- God

THIRTEEN.
What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- Nadiah ngadangadamacamtaikkudatunggusepakanbuntutdariku:D

FOURTEEN.
Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Single and rich, baby!

FIFTEEN.
What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- Check the time

SIXTEEN.
Would you give all in a relationship?
- Ehh

SEVENTEEN.
If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one with a bigger heart

EIGHTEEN.
Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Yes

NINETEEN.
Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- Single

TWENTY.
List 5 people to tag
Nico Nini Miza Bla Blo:D