turn left or right?

Chicken chop tastes good, although I don't really like the black pepper sauce. But somehow, roti canai is more enjoyable...

hear the silence

When asked what my hobby is, I would simply answer I like reading. Well, I do like reading, except that reading is just one of my side hobbies.

To be very honest, what I love to do most is to just sit or lie alone somewhere quiet, and listen to musics using the earplugs. You know, just listening to the harmony and magical sound that came from the instruments, the lovely voice of the singers, every bit of words of the lyrics; and capturing the stories behind the songs. I love doing that.

Let me tell you about this Japanese song. I fell in love with it the first time I heard it on YouTube. I immediately downloaded the video, started hunting for the MP3 file, and searched both the lyrics and the translation. Then I played it over and over and over. And yes, I'm still hearing it now by the time I'm writing this. The song actually is very simple, but yet so beautiful for me. Here's some of the translation for its lyrics:

The rainbow is really pretty
No, it's you that's prettier

And there's another song that had me thinking about my school life which is almost coming to the end these past few days. Each time I listened to it, I would be thinking about what will happen after this. What will happen to us. No one has the answer, right? You know, in my entire school life, I had wanted nothing more than to end it and be an adult. But the fact that it is coming to the end now scares me. Somehow the real world outside there seems very frightening. And somehow, I just want to be in school, with the people that I know:')

But tonight we feel like stars
We'll play our air guitars
Cause we're eighteen

the umbrella, the heroin pill and the green walkman

Three wonderful people I call friends: Nadiah, who is always ready to hear my moans, rantings and mumblings; Nini, who is always there to bring out the crazy side of me; and Nico, who is always there to hear new gossips (oops, I mean news. hehehe:P), and to discover new musics. Thank you, for being by my side through it all:)

ecstasy

You know, sometimes we find something that really make us happy. Something that make you forget all your pains, your worries and your sorrows. Suddenly you find yourself cherishing every second you spend with that thing, and you crave for more if you are away from it.

But then you realize that no matter how happy you are with that something, you can't continue doing it. No matter how much you love it, you can't do that. You just can't.


What should I do, Bulan?

do you see me

When you close your eyes and see yourself, what do you dream you are and what do you dream you can become?

- Jo Kukathas

twentyfive

I was inspired to write a list of 25 random things about me as soon after reading this month's issue of KLue. And here they are:


ONE
My mind wanders a lot, even without me realizing it.

TWO
Azuan was my first ever best friend. He was the first person to say hello to me on my first day in kindergarten. The other boys always called him names because he likes to mix with the girls in class but I think he was (and still is) such a sweetie because he was always one of the firsts to get out from class to save me the swing. Thanks a zillion, Azuan:)

THREE
I avoid singing in front of public (except my family) as much as I can. I really love music but I really can't sing.

FOUR
I told my mom and my sisters if all four of us (Kaklong, Kakngah, Abang and me) form a band, I would call it Adik-Beradik Hentam band. And I would introduce Kaklong as Kaklong Hentam, Kakngah as Kakngah Hentam, Abang as Abang Hentam and me as Adik Hentam. Haha:D

FIVE
My primary e-mail password is based on my first major crush's birthday. And I'm not planning to change it.

SIX
The day my family moved here, I refused to go for bath in the morning because "Adik nak mandi kolam,". My nenek saudara who happened to be there laughed like it was the funniest joke ever. And, she told her children that.

SEVEN
I am suffering from lisp. Some of my friends and family always tease me for that, and I hate them for that.

EIGHT
I have names for some of the things I (and my family) own. For instance, I call our Charade car Carlos, our Getz Paulo and our Odyssey Magda. I even call my phone Charli, my favourite blue watch Paige and my blue Nike bag given by Abang Molly.

NINE
I once typed my named on Flickr search box and I found out there's a singer (which I suspected in Africa) named Shahida.

TEN
I discovered most of my tak-pernah-dengar-pun-penyanyi-dia songs from TV shows and movies. Mostly I got them from OTH.

ELEVEN
Speaking of OTH, I once had a huge crush on Chad Michael Murray but as soon as I learned that he cheated on his sweet, beautiful, hot, kind-hearted, adorable and graceful wife, Sophia Bush with Paris Hilton, he became one of the guys I hate most.

TWELVE
I told my mom and Mayo the only boarding school I would attend is MCKK.

THIRTEEN
I cry very easily.

FOURTEEN
I learned a fantastic crying technique from Blair Waldorf which I find very useful especially if we're in a hurry.

FIFTEEN
Abang is one of the two major reasons why I started blogging. The other is because I just love writing:)

SIXTEEN
I only started to eat banana in public again several years after some of my horrible Form 1 classmates (and their friends) stopped calling me Pisang.

SEVENTEEN
A boy named Farouq which I call Ketua was my first ever crush. I first met him when I was in Standard 2 on my first day in Taekwondo class (Daia, you know him for sure:P). However, he only spoke to me - I mean really spoke to me - about a couple of years later. I came across him when I was riding on my bicycle and he asked me this, "Esok ada Taekwondo tak?". I was all smile that day:)

EIGHTEEN
I've never met and known anyone who shares the same birthday with me before until I found out James Lafferty's birthday. Gosh, I really do love you Jamie:)

NINETEEN
I stated loud and clear for several times before that I do not wish to be a doctor because I hate studying 24/7.

TWENTY
When I was in Form 3, my trial result dropped to 3As because I was busy reading Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.

TWENTY-ONE
I usually don't tell my best friends my secrets. But Dayang is different, and I don't know why.

TWENTY-TWO
According to Aisy, I am 'stealthily loud'. At first I didn't agree it but then I realized I am stealthily loud. Thank you very much Aisy;D

TWENTY-THREE
On the day my family moved from Kemaman to Kuala Terengganu, I was riding on my favourite pink bunny tricycle when a lorry came and one of the guys took the tricycle from me. I ran to my mom and cried. Gosh, how could he do that to such an adorable and innocent child?

TWENTY-FOUR
I call myself my mom's Golden Daughter. She just laughed each time I said that

TWENTY-FIVE
Always, what happened around me got me thinking. Always, TV shows like Honey and Clover and OTH, and songs got me thinking. Always, watching strangers got me thinking. Always, my imaginations, what-could-have-beens and what-should-have-beens got me thinking. And always, I think too much.

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