the end

Do you know why I try the hardest that I could to go to school everyday these days? Like everyone knows, we Form 5s are getting closer to end our school days.

Honestly, the idea of not going to school anymore scares me, although that is what I have been dreaming of. We go to school everyday knowing what to expect, or at least, we can have the ideas of what's going to happen. We know who are we going to meet. We know where we are heading to with each step we take. We know that we are going a place we are familiar with, or for some, feel safe at.

I didn't like going to school, and I couldn't wait to graduate from school. But ever since I watched this scene in One Tree Hill a few years ago, suddenly my eyes became wide open of what school is to many of the students. In that scene, the school counselor asked Brooke about her plan for college. Here's what she said: "The truth is I don't really like to think about college, 'cause that means high school's over. After graduation, everyone will probably go play basketball or sing or start record labels. And I'll have to start all over. Alone."

That made me think. School is a safe place, whether you realize it or not. Like I already mentioned, we know what to expect in school, but not outside. I don't know what to expect later. I don't know whether I'll get to meet my friends again. I don't know how we all will change. I don't know whether things can stay same. Some, at least, if not all. And the truth is, I'm kind of scared about the future.

And that's why I try hard to go to school every single day. I don't have much time left to cherish everything I have now. Therefore, I want to make use every minute of it very wisely now, so that I will know, I did have my own safe place once. I'll also know that I have priceless memories about one of the best times of my life :')