noona neomu yeppeoseo

Not.

Haha. Joking. Okay, let's get serious.


Dear Dayang,

How long have we known each other? Eight years? Well if you remember correctly, I have known you more than that. I was always watching you with your friends even before we actually befriended each other. I don't know why, but somehow you got my attention. Eventually, we got into the same class and I finally made a move to say hi to you properly.

We had so much being classmates in 2002. We were just 10 at that time, and you had a not-so-secret admirer who peeked in our class to have a look at you each time he had free period. I always think you guys were funny, that's why I willingly became the middle person. Eventually, I became close with the boy, and we remain as good acquaintances even after you moved (and fyi he was the one who introduced me to my eventual stalker!). Oh, remember that time during Science class? Our teacher Cikgu Zulkarnain gave us a work. It was something about doing experiment report. One of the questions was to name the animals which were labelled P, Q, R, S and T. Of course, being too clever, we made up our own guesses based on the initials. We tried so hard to think what animal whose name starts from letter Q. I laughed so hard each time I recalled of that.

Well, things don't always work out as planned. Although we were so close, somehow we grew apart. We stopped spending time together, and we started hanging out with different people. Truth is, I was always glancing at you and wished I was brave enough to get things right between us. I foolishly hoped that someday we would be close again. I wish too much sometimes, and before I could do anything, you moved.

After you moved, I regretted being such a coward. I regretted not doing the things I should do. I regretted not saying goodbye to you properly. I regretted not hugging you so tight. I regretted everyday.

About a couple of years after you moved, I found you through Friendster. I was afraid at first. I am always afraid of the past. That's one thing that keeps bothering me. But well, you just kept messaging me like nothing had ever happened. Then I eventually thought maybe I was just exaggerating things. Through the wonderful thing called Internet, we instantly became close again. This time we're closer than ever. Maybe it's the distance. There even were days where we chatted everyday. It's like we never ran out of things to say to each other.

But I am never a good friend, although I call myself one. Even to me, it seems like all we talk about is involving me and my life and my friends and my crushes and what I like and what I don't like. I am a selfish friend, I know. I never asked you how's your school life, who's your good friend there, and even how's your feeling. It's always about me. I go around and tell the world that you're my best friend. But you know, I always ask myself, have I been a good friend? You don't really tell me what's happening in your life that often. You didn't even tell me you broke up with that I-am-so-going-to-kick-his-butt-once-I-meet-him Aaron. Not that I want to make you feel bad, but that made me wonder, where do I stand in your heart that you didn't even tell me such an important thing?

Maybe I bothered you so much with Al and Nino. Haha.

Well speaking of Nino, what happened to our agreement? Didn't we promise to get to know each other's true love? It looks like we both had forgotten about it. At least I can tell the members apart now. How about you?

You know, I can't remember the last time we have serious talk. I mean really serious issues. It seems that all we talk about are Nino, Seunggi, Nino again, Minho, Seunggi again, Nino again, Minho again, Jun, Minho again, Seunggi again, Nino again, Arashi and Big Bang. Oh yeah, and Taeyang. Haha! We talk too much about them. Even Amira complained her home wall is full with our tweets. Maybe we should tone down, girl. Or find some other subjects.

I don't know what else is there to type down here. You know we don't have much memories together. The only one that has always stayed strong in my head, and will always will, is the times we spent in class playing the game we call titik. We play it extraordinarily and with style. And for that, I can't bring myself to play with other people apart from you nowadays. They can never understand our tradition.

Well then Happy 18^th Birthday my friend. Hope you will enjoy my present. Onew once said, "I don't really want to be the best. I just want to be someone I won't be ashamed of,". So be someone you'll be proud of and do things you won't regret later. But don't be afraid to make mistakes. You'll learn much more from that.

You most probably are watching 1 Night and Two Days aka Seunggi right now. I'm telling you, kiddie jump that goes with dimpled smiles are the best ;)


PS hands off my Minho!

the house of open

Friday's open house was awesome. Most of the people I invited came, and terima kasih banyak diucapkan (: My mom cooked nasi minyak and maggi goreng for us. She was very proud of her nasi minyak because she said she hadn't cooked it for a long while, but both nasi and the lauks taste perfect. Haha.

Nadiah was the first one to arrive. She came at 2 to help my mom and me prepare. Turned out my mom did pretty much everything when I was at school, so there was nothing much to do. In the end, we just sit and play Hangman. Then Nini arrived. When we were playing Nadiah's batu seremban, Azeem came.

They didn't really want to eat so early, because there were only four of us. Plus I've already eaten. So we just hang around and played Hangman where Nini was the woman who hangs. But poor Nini didn't get to hang anybody because her words were super easy, including KUIH RAYA and BIRMINGHAM. Hahaha :D

When they were picking up food, I went to Nadiah and studied her plate. "Tiga ringgit setengah," I said. Azeem who was in front of us, dropped the senduk and said, "Alaa, kena bayar ke? Kalau macam tu tak payah makan la,". I bursted into a giggle. He then said, "Ni bukan open house. Ni open shop,"

Even after they finished their food, the others still haven't arrived. It was already 4 o'clock. I was staring at my phone clock and grumbling when Nini said, "Janji Melayu kalau pukul 3, pukul 4 lebih baru sampai,". Oh well.

Azeem had to leave early because he has another open house to attend. We had our funny apologising-handingduitraya session which Nadiah laughed hardly at. Then, at around 4.10 when the three of us were playing batu seremban, Daia arrived. She joined us and we played in group. Both Nini and me sucked. Even after Nadiah and Daia had passed three games, we didn't even reached batu tangkap -.-"

Sheela then arrived with Ruhil. And so did Sze Ting, Jessica and her cute little brother, Benjamin (whom we called Jamin =P). Then with the help of Nadiah, I saw Ker and Adip standing not far from my house. I called them in, but they said they were waiting for Wan. The girls were picking up food when the boys finally came in. They went straight to the sofa and self-servicing themselves with the kuih rayas. I went to them and joked, "Oi, orang tak sempat nak ajak korang dah makan eh?"

Nico and Sawi who was picked up by Wan arrived some time later at around 4.30. When I was watching Daia played Hangman with Sze Ting and Sawi, I glanced at my phone clock and suddenly realized Lukman wasn't there yet. He promised me to come at 4 after his class ends. He replied my text and said his class hasn't ended but he'll come at 5.

All of us were busy playing Hangman (with 5 Amanah theme) when suddenly Wan called me and said Hijaz was outside. Well, he was just dropping off Lukman. Yes, he finally arrived.

We all had a good time playing 5 Amanah themed Hangman. Among the words used were Pn Erwani's CALCULATOR HELP ME and SHOBA KUMAR by Daia, and DARWINAWATY by me. There was this one time when we guessing Nadiah's word, and Lukman who was sitting on the sofa by door eating suddenly called out, "Saya putar, Halim!" :D

Sawi became the center of attention of my mom because he didn't eat anything. He can't eat the nasi minyak, maggi goreng, kuih raya and even the keropok. Finally it ouccured to her that the pudding was eggless. Sawi then immediately went up and fill the pudding in his plate.

Besides that, Jamin also attracted the limelight. Seriously he was cute, especially when he said "Takde.." when we were guessing his word. =P

17

I finally turned 17 today. Alhamdulillah.

This year is so much different from last year. This year I became a person that I know I would be proud of in the next 30 years. I grew up, and I have matured. Therefore, I'd like to thank the people who have played such important roles in making me a better person today. I also would like to thank:

Mi, for singing for me yesterday and this morning. Thanks also for being such a considerate mother and returned home before my birthday arrives. I love you, golden mommy (:

Nadiah, for sending me two texts wishing me a happy birthday. Thanks also for calling me one and half hour earlier to wish me because you were sleepy. I love you, honey (:

Dayang, for texting me minutes after 12 o'clock (according to my phone). Thanks for saving a few cents to text me. I know how poor you are. Haha. I love you, honey (:

Nico, for wishing me twice, a day earlier. Thanks also for texting me this morning. I love you, HSBC (:

Shoba, for wishing me a day earlier. Thanks also for giving me a nice hug. I love you, deskmate (:

Darwin, for wishing me shy-shy-catly a day earlier. I will never forget how you said it. I love you, class mascot (:

Nini, for calling me, screamed my name and wished me in the middle of the night. Thanks also for giving me a kiss on the cheek yesterday, and for giving me hugs today. I love you, honey (:

Aisy, for texting me twice. Thanks also for screaming Happy Birthday very loudly this morning. We're SO 17! I love you, Aisiyah (:

Sheela, for texting me this morning. Thanks also for being concerned at me these past few days. I love you, buddy (:

M, for remembering my birthday and wishing me this morning. Thanks also for working hard for the tarik tali competition. Second place is still awesome, man. I love you, buddy (:

Abang, for texting me at almost the exact same time as last year. Thanks also for being the most wonderful abang I could ever asked for. I love you, big brother (:

Kaklong, for texting me quite late for a sister. Haha. Thanks also for introducing me to Arashi nine years ago. I love you, big sister (:

Lukman, for being so happy to get my muffins yet so guilty for being the one who's receiving a gift. Haha. Thanks for still wishing me although you just found out it this afternoon. Thanks also for always helping me and making me laugh during Taekwondo. I love you, awesome friend (:

Daia, for texting me once I got home padahal I spent almost the whole morning with her. Haha. Thanks also for remembering and for being such a great captain. I love you, kawan lama (:

Kakngah, for wishing me on Facebook. Whaatt la -_-" Thanks also for letting me watch Niji for the first ever time. I love you, KakngahP (:

Azeem, for remembering my birthday and texting me. Thanks also for being my "biggest fan". I really had fun with you in the SR room last Thursday. I love you, Adam (:

Persona, for BEING THE OVERALL CHAMPION! You made my day. Tak sia sia I ran around covered with flour screaming and cheering until I almost lost my voice. I love you, team (:

To the others whom wished me as well but I did not mention here (it's either I had forgotten or I just want to make it shorter:P) , I thank you, too. I had a blast on this year's birthday. I love you guys with alll my heart (:

spirit of the champion

PERSONA ROCKS!

Ps, I'm tanned! Haiyo. I knew I shouldn't wear a three-quarter -_-"

ss-ing day

Today was fun:D

First we had this senamrobik thingummy early in the morning. Before we started the poco-poco dance, Nadiah asked me how to dance poco-poco. I told her it's like how we did during Khemah Ibadah. But then she said she didn't really follow it that day. So after having a quick lesson, she came up with her own version of poco-poco dance - the pocong-pocong dance. Haha. It's pretty much the same as the original one, but instead of dancing, you actually have to jump with your hands held out in front:P

Then, after the senamrobik thingummy had finished, all of us were in a hyper mood. We all stand outside our class and feel the wind. It's really fun, you know. Just stand there among each other, hold your hands out, close your eyes, feel the wind passing through your body, and laugh together:)

Next, we had a photography session. Like Nico said, we all became such ss and just snap snap snap. We did so many quierky yet funny poses. 5A rocks:D

In between the photography session, we had an eating session. I brought muffins for everyone, and that hyper-ed them up more. Haha. Many were so shy shy cat to take another and another muffin, especially Darwin. Nadiah, Nico and Nini were so happy to receive my special smiley muffins. I just wished I succeeded giving one to that another person I had in mind. But well. After my muffins, Daia brought out her cute mini JCos. Nico was all hyper-ed up and ran around the class holding his Oreology. You were so cute, Nico Fox;D

But well, everything good and fun must come to an end right? After recess ended, some teachers rudely asked us to go to the dewan for the Isra' Mikraj ceramah. Not that I have a thing on ceramahs, but they really shouldn't ruined our hyperness, right?

Thanks for this lovely early birthday present, Nini (:

Rest In Peace, Sawi Jackson :'(

Presenting, our Sawi Jackson Project :)




To my teammates;
Nico: Thanks for lending us your house to brainstorm our ideas and practice. Thanks for helping me choosing the right song after Sawi's death. Thanks for the great ideas. You're awesome:)
Nini: Thanks for being such a creative leader. Thanks for your drawings. Thanks for showing Sawi the right moves and way to die. Thanks for the great ideas. You're awesome:)
Ker: Thanks for being patient with our absurdness. Thanks for your shitty face when measuring Sawi's body using your hands (although you didn't do it during the real presentation). Thanks for the great ideas. You're awesome:)
Sawi: Thanks for willing to be the great Sawi Jackson. Thanks for listening to our stupid, crazy ideas. Thanks for actually giving us the idea of doing a Michael Jackson-inspired sketch. Thanks for the great moves. You're awesome.

To Aisy;
Thanks for willing to spend time with us and giving us great ideas even though you're not doing the presentation. Thanks for being a good advisor. You are a part of us too. You're awesome:)

To my mom and Kakngah;
Thanks for borrowing me the flowers, the lab coat, the fake mobile phone and so much more. You're awesome:)

To Aeman;
Thanks for borrowing us your cap. You're awesome:)

To Lukman;
Thanks for borrowing us your guitar to practice. We didn't use it anyway. You're awesome:)
To Syamin;
Thanks for recording the video for me. You're awesome:)

To Yuga;
Thanks for willing to be the one at the computer to play the songs during the sketch. You're awesome:)

To 5 Amaniahans and Pn Norsham;
Thanks for your support and cheering for us. Thanks for laughing out very loud and being sad at the end of the sketch. Thanks for understanding our performance. You're awesome:)

sayang

At first I was thinking of writing something about Abang, but then I realized that no words can describe how awesome he is and how much I love him. So here, I just want to wish him a happy 21st birthday.

You're my hero, always and forever. Adik sayang Abang:)

Jangan Bunuh Katak Itu

Last Friday morning we 5 Amanahians all became The Katak Killers (hey guys, can you please find some other names? I hate the way hians sounds :/ ). Haha. Once we get inside the lab, everyone became super excited to rip open the frogs' chest and immediately became perasan after putting on the lab coats:P

ATT: I didn't kill the katak nor did I do anything to hurt the poor froggie. I am such an animal lover, I don't have the heart to cut open its chest:D

Say hello to Froggie, Froggina and Froggie & Froggina Jrs:D



Snap snap snap!

Killin' em















The End

a pocketful of sunshine

Since it's Nini's birthday, I decided to post her crazyfunnyquirkyhappy pictures:D

AHAHAHA:D

who we are

Today is the last day of our exam (YAY!). Our final paper ended at 8.50 am so after that everyone went GILA . First we had some eating session, and then everyone can do whatever they want. Well, everyone except for Nico, Sawi, Irsyad and Ker who had to do their Accounts paper. Tu la korang, sape suruh ambik Accounts:D

Here are some example of our GILA activities:

SZE TING happy EATING

yum yum!

yes I got your picture, NADIAH:D

NINI & SHOBA gila as always

HAPPY FRIENDS
SHY SHY CATS & not shy shy cats:D

BERSATU KITA TEGUH YEAH!

Guys, I'll post the videos later. They're like, uploadiingg...

love makes world go round

I've been taught we should balik kampung for Raya since forever. But I've never known why. Yesterday, I've learned the answer.

Last year was the most awkward Raya ever for my family. Abang wasn't with us. And it felt so empty without him. An incompelete feeling, that was it. It was dull, and so terribly horrible. I cried myself to sleep for nights. I couldn't imagine spending another Raya without him or anyone else.

This year, we are complete. Everyone's here. The six of us. I look at them and I smile. This is how I want to spend it every year. Together.

So what I've learned yesterday was, balik kampung isn't just to celebrate Raya. We can celebrate it anywhere. Even in the space. It doesn't matter where or how we celebrate it; it's just who we spend it with. I've learned that people balik kampung for Raya to celebrate it with their families - the people they cherish and love most.

I love my family. Despite their cons and sometime-weirdness, they are my family, and I love them.

dendang perantau

Selamat Hari Raya, ampun maaf dipinta:)

make a wish

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