Lucas: I don't hate you. I remember the first time I ever saw you. All skinny arms and tangled mess of hair. It was hard letting you go, Peyton. It was hard losing you, and it was hard seeing you again...and it's still really hard.
Peyton: I know...While I'm asleep I have this dream where we're back in the hotel room in L.A. And you propose to me, and every single time I say yes.
Lucas: It's just a dream, right?
Peyton: It's my dream.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Friday, August 29, 2008
thanks for the memories
Taken from OK! Weekly magazine, August 2006
Sophia Bush's graceful manner and total composure in front of the camera are all the more admirable given that she's had one the most difficult years of her life. When her much publicized April 2005 marriage to fellow One Tree Hill star Chad Michael Murray ended in an annulment after just five months, she was understandably devastated. Sophia has had the unenviable task of working with her ex every day on set, as well as seeing him get engaged again, to 18 years-old show extra Kenzie Dalton. But while most people would crumble in this situation, Sophia handles it all with total professionalism. Her frankness about how she's become a stronger and more introspective person after the split is impressive. Sophia is spending her hiatus from One Tree Hill in Texas filming the remake of 1986 thriller The Hitcher, in which she stars opposite British hunk Sean Bean. You can currently watch her on the big screen in high school comedy John Tucker Must Die.
Here, Sophia speaks candidly for the first time about how she's dealt with the end of her marriage and why heartache will not stop her from finding love again.
Are you sad that i didn't work out with Chad?
No, I'm not sad it didn't work out because it wasn't supposed to. I'm much better off now and much happier than I've ever been,, so I wouldn't change anything.
Has it turned you off relationships?
No. I think people go through things for reasons. This last year has been wonderful for me because I've always put all my faith in the world and really believed in people, even when everyone else doesn't. I don't ever want to lose that, but, at the same time, I think the last year has given me the perspective to really take care of myself.
Was the breakup difficult?
It wasn't fun to go through, but I value it for what it taught me. I think there's nothing greater in the world than love and relationships. I look at my parents' marriage -- they've been together for 25 years and they're astounding! They're still crazy about each other. Just because things don't workout the way you've planned, I don't think it should change your mind. I respect marriage as an institution and wish it wasn't taken so lightly. It's something I value and take seriously.
How is it working with Chad?
It's something I have to do. It's part of my job. I value being an actor more than anything and I would never jeopardize that. I would never give up my integrity as an actor because of my personal life -- I could never stomach that. I go to work and I do my job for the audience. At the end of the day, I love playing Brooke. If I were allowing my personal life to get in the way of that. I'd be taking this opportunity for granted.
But it must be hard since he's found a new relationship on set?
There are good days and bad days, let's be honest. But it's like that in any situation - it's like that with your best friend, with your enemies, with your siblings. You have days when you get along with people and days when you want to strangle them. I think that's true of a relationship that's continuing, or of a relationship that has ended. We're just lucky that the majority of days run smoothly. And even when they don't, we're in a situation where we're forced to laugh it off. We're lucky to be on a set where there's not much tension. Anything that might be hard is so minor in comparison to what other people go through in these situations.
Why did you decide on an annulment rather than a divorce?
I don't really want to get into the legality of it. If people had insight onto that, it [still] wouldn't give them any better understanding why the relationship ended.
Have you found time for a new boyfriend?
I think you have time for what you choose to have in your life. Luckily, I'm a person who doesn't require an extraordinary amount of sleep! [laughs] I strongly value my relationships and the people in my life. If I love somebody, they get everything I have to give as long as I'm not sacrificing myself. At the same time, I think when you get into this sort of a schedule, your circle of friends gets smaller; you keep the people who mean the most to you.
Can you say who you're dating?
There's nothing I need to go public on.
Have your friends helped?
My girlfriends are everything to me. At the same time, I do have a very grueling and demanding work schedule, and they know that sometimes when I'm on night shoots, they might go a week without speaking to me. Of course, it's hard being away from home -- I just miss them so much.
Your new movie John Tucker Must Die is about a high school player who is set up by the girls he has cheated on. Can you relate?
I think we've all known somebody like John Tucker, somebody who's pulled the wool over your eyes. The movie allowed all of us girls on the film to make light of certain personal situations that we've gone through in our own lives. It's always nice when you can laugh about something that made you cry.
Are you similar to your character, Beth?
It was really entertaining to create this girl who preaches a healthy, calm, Zen lifestyle. Then the moment she gets challenged, she starts to yell and become a lunatic. It's not the way I am at all.
What about your One Tree Hill character, Brooke?
I have certain similarities to Brooke now more than when the show began. I'm a fiercely loyal person. I can get excited about just about anything. Regardless of how hard it may be, I think there's always a way to find the light in a situation. At the same time, Brooke is a ditzy girl. I was a total bookworm in high school and college.
What's the best piece of advice your parents gave you?
To be honest with myself and the people in my life. I think when everything you do is based on honesty, it really helps prevent a big ego or conceit. It's very easy in this business for the people to be ruled by their egos, and my parents taught me that ego is a very ugly thing.
You just had your birthday. Did you celebrate on set?
I did! I got lucky because on Friday night when the midnight struck, it was my birthday. So at 1 a.m., I had an enormous cake and ate all of it! It was exceptional! I got to sleep until Saturday afternoon. We enjoyed our day off and gathered the whole crew together for dinner, and I had another cake. I got to celebrate twice and thought it was fantastic!
What is the biggest misconception about you?
After playing Brooke, I'm sure a lot of people assume that I'm a happy-go-lucky, pretty party girl! But that's not what I value. As much as I have my girly side, I am very much a tomboy. I love to be outdoors with my dogs. I love to go on road trips and adventures and learn. What I would love most is to be able to take a year off to travel around the world.
Where would you love to travel?
I'd really love to go to India. Also, Africa is an amazing continent with so much life and so many things I think would be eye-opening. At some point you hope to be in a position in your career where you can start dictating your schedule.
Are you environmentally minded?
I'm buying a hybrid car and changing all my light bulbs to the energy-efficient kind. I'm recycling and doing what I can because the state of the planet is just unacceptable.
Where do you want to be in 10 years?
I want to get to a place where I have the opportunity to do the jobs I want, where I start to have a bit of creative control. If I look back and have a meaningful body of work, and time with my friends and family scattered in between, I'll be a really happy girl.
What's your biggest vice?
I have a bit of shopping problem [laughs]. I've got such an addiction to shoes and handbags, it's silly. I'm trying to curb it, but it's hard because they're so much fun!
How was the OK! shoot?
I had a great time! It was an afternoon of playing dress-up, like a fairy tale. Trotting around in this massive mansion in amazing black-tie clothing; the whole thing was just hilarious.
Sophia Bush's graceful manner and total composure in front of the camera are all the more admirable given that she's had one the most difficult years of her life. When her much publicized April 2005 marriage to fellow One Tree Hill star Chad Michael Murray ended in an annulment after just five months, she was understandably devastated. Sophia has had the unenviable task of working with her ex every day on set, as well as seeing him get engaged again, to 18 years-old show extra Kenzie Dalton. But while most people would crumble in this situation, Sophia handles it all with total professionalism. Her frankness about how she's become a stronger and more introspective person after the split is impressive. Sophia is spending her hiatus from One Tree Hill in Texas filming the remake of 1986 thriller The Hitcher, in which she stars opposite British hunk Sean Bean. You can currently watch her on the big screen in high school comedy John Tucker Must Die.
Here, Sophia speaks candidly for the first time about how she's dealt with the end of her marriage and why heartache will not stop her from finding love again.
Are you sad that i didn't work out with Chad?
No, I'm not sad it didn't work out because it wasn't supposed to. I'm much better off now and much happier than I've ever been,, so I wouldn't change anything.
Has it turned you off relationships?
No. I think people go through things for reasons. This last year has been wonderful for me because I've always put all my faith in the world and really believed in people, even when everyone else doesn't. I don't ever want to lose that, but, at the same time, I think the last year has given me the perspective to really take care of myself.
Was the breakup difficult?
It wasn't fun to go through, but I value it for what it taught me. I think there's nothing greater in the world than love and relationships. I look at my parents' marriage -- they've been together for 25 years and they're astounding! They're still crazy about each other. Just because things don't workout the way you've planned, I don't think it should change your mind. I respect marriage as an institution and wish it wasn't taken so lightly. It's something I value and take seriously.
How is it working with Chad?
It's something I have to do. It's part of my job. I value being an actor more than anything and I would never jeopardize that. I would never give up my integrity as an actor because of my personal life -- I could never stomach that. I go to work and I do my job for the audience. At the end of the day, I love playing Brooke. If I were allowing my personal life to get in the way of that. I'd be taking this opportunity for granted.
But it must be hard since he's found a new relationship on set?
There are good days and bad days, let's be honest. But it's like that in any situation - it's like that with your best friend, with your enemies, with your siblings. You have days when you get along with people and days when you want to strangle them. I think that's true of a relationship that's continuing, or of a relationship that has ended. We're just lucky that the majority of days run smoothly. And even when they don't, we're in a situation where we're forced to laugh it off. We're lucky to be on a set where there's not much tension. Anything that might be hard is so minor in comparison to what other people go through in these situations.
Why did you decide on an annulment rather than a divorce?
I don't really want to get into the legality of it. If people had insight onto that, it [still] wouldn't give them any better understanding why the relationship ended.
Have you found time for a new boyfriend?
I think you have time for what you choose to have in your life. Luckily, I'm a person who doesn't require an extraordinary amount of sleep! [laughs] I strongly value my relationships and the people in my life. If I love somebody, they get everything I have to give as long as I'm not sacrificing myself. At the same time, I think when you get into this sort of a schedule, your circle of friends gets smaller; you keep the people who mean the most to you.
Can you say who you're dating?
There's nothing I need to go public on.
Have your friends helped?
My girlfriends are everything to me. At the same time, I do have a very grueling and demanding work schedule, and they know that sometimes when I'm on night shoots, they might go a week without speaking to me. Of course, it's hard being away from home -- I just miss them so much.
Your new movie John Tucker Must Die is about a high school player who is set up by the girls he has cheated on. Can you relate?
I think we've all known somebody like John Tucker, somebody who's pulled the wool over your eyes. The movie allowed all of us girls on the film to make light of certain personal situations that we've gone through in our own lives. It's always nice when you can laugh about something that made you cry.
Are you similar to your character, Beth?
It was really entertaining to create this girl who preaches a healthy, calm, Zen lifestyle. Then the moment she gets challenged, she starts to yell and become a lunatic. It's not the way I am at all.
What about your One Tree Hill character, Brooke?
I have certain similarities to Brooke now more than when the show began. I'm a fiercely loyal person. I can get excited about just about anything. Regardless of how hard it may be, I think there's always a way to find the light in a situation. At the same time, Brooke is a ditzy girl. I was a total bookworm in high school and college.
What's the best piece of advice your parents gave you?
To be honest with myself and the people in my life. I think when everything you do is based on honesty, it really helps prevent a big ego or conceit. It's very easy in this business for the people to be ruled by their egos, and my parents taught me that ego is a very ugly thing.
You just had your birthday. Did you celebrate on set?
I did! I got lucky because on Friday night when the midnight struck, it was my birthday. So at 1 a.m., I had an enormous cake and ate all of it! It was exceptional! I got to sleep until Saturday afternoon. We enjoyed our day off and gathered the whole crew together for dinner, and I had another cake. I got to celebrate twice and thought it was fantastic!
What is the biggest misconception about you?
After playing Brooke, I'm sure a lot of people assume that I'm a happy-go-lucky, pretty party girl! But that's not what I value. As much as I have my girly side, I am very much a tomboy. I love to be outdoors with my dogs. I love to go on road trips and adventures and learn. What I would love most is to be able to take a year off to travel around the world.
Where would you love to travel?
I'd really love to go to India. Also, Africa is an amazing continent with so much life and so many things I think would be eye-opening. At some point you hope to be in a position in your career where you can start dictating your schedule.
Are you environmentally minded?
I'm buying a hybrid car and changing all my light bulbs to the energy-efficient kind. I'm recycling and doing what I can because the state of the planet is just unacceptable.
Where do you want to be in 10 years?
I want to get to a place where I have the opportunity to do the jobs I want, where I start to have a bit of creative control. If I look back and have a meaningful body of work, and time with my friends and family scattered in between, I'll be a really happy girl.
What's your biggest vice?
I have a bit of shopping problem [laughs]. I've got such an addiction to shoes and handbags, it's silly. I'm trying to curb it, but it's hard because they're so much fun!
How was the OK! shoot?
I had a great time! It was an afternoon of playing dress-up, like a fairy tale. Trotting around in this massive mansion in amazing black-tie clothing; the whole thing was just hilarious.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
waltz
Moon River, wider than a mile,
I'm crossing you in style some day.
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker,
wherever you're going I'm going your way.
Two drifters off to see the world.
There's such a lot of world to see.
We're after the same rainbow's end--
waiting 'round the bend,
my huckleberry friend,
Moon River and me.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
bring the pain
Albert Camus once wrote, "Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never be broken." But I wonder if there's no breaking then there's no healing, and if there's no healing then there's no learning. And if there's no learning then there's no struggle. But struggle is a part of life. So must all hearts be broken?"
sometimes a fantasy
I have always adore boy-girl best friends. People say boys and girls can never be just good friends. But I believe they can.
In school, I really enjoy watching these two best friends. They look so good together. So perfect. Like Lucas and Haley. They are always there for each other - giving supports, giving hopes, keeping each other's dreams alive. And they are a he and a she. Even their names rhyme. F and F. But I won't mention their names here.
He is one of the most famous boys in school. He melts many girls' heart. Even the best lookings' and the most populars'. He has a good heart, and a good look. He is a very fun boy. Charming, naughty, thoughtful. He isn't afraid to make fun of himself. And that's very good.
In the opposite, she is just a girl-next-door. One that we can usually find among others. She is friendly, helpful, thoughtful, funny and quiet. She loves to smile and she loves to laugh. And she is a good listener.
They are both different from the outside. But somehow they found similarities in each other's heart, and that similarities became a very strong bond that ties them together.
Although I just watch them from afar, but I feel like I've known them forever. I can see how much they understand each other, how much they need each other, how much they love each other, how comfortable they are with each other, how much they belong to each other. I can feel it in my heart.
People say opposite attracts. Now I have a really good reason to believe them.
In school, I really enjoy watching these two best friends. They look so good together. So perfect. Like Lucas and Haley. They are always there for each other - giving supports, giving hopes, keeping each other's dreams alive. And they are a he and a she. Even their names rhyme. F and F. But I won't mention their names here.
He is one of the most famous boys in school. He melts many girls' heart. Even the best lookings' and the most populars'. He has a good heart, and a good look. He is a very fun boy. Charming, naughty, thoughtful. He isn't afraid to make fun of himself. And that's very good.
In the opposite, she is just a girl-next-door. One that we can usually find among others. She is friendly, helpful, thoughtful, funny and quiet. She loves to smile and she loves to laugh. And she is a good listener.
They are both different from the outside. But somehow they found similarities in each other's heart, and that similarities became a very strong bond that ties them together.
Although I just watch them from afar, but I feel like I've known them forever. I can see how much they understand each other, how much they need each other, how much they love each other, how comfortable they are with each other, how much they belong to each other. I can feel it in my heart.
People say opposite attracts. Now I have a really good reason to believe them.
oh, the guilt
Fuck straight-like-a-ruler V.
Fuck bitch liar K.
Fuck my bag.
Fuck the stupid rules.
Fuck the school.
Fuck bitch liar K.
Fuck my bag.
Fuck the stupid rules.
Fuck the school.
Monday, August 25, 2008
i am
October 19
Kaitlin Malone
Two figures dance, alone on top of a hill. Their dance, a story about how far East really is from West. When sins are remembered no more. When each day is fresh, an a smile speaks of a future. Their dance is light, their rhythm joyful, their love more real than the soft grass they tread on...and that is enough.
Kaitlin Malone
suddenly i see
Two days ago, I went to some relatives' wedding with my cousins and their kids. And I found myself falling for two brothers. I can't take my eyes off of them. They are both handsome, charming, nice and so cute.
The older one, Naufal:)
And the younger one, Naqib:)
DIORANG SANGAT COMEL DAN MENGGODA:DD
The older one, Naufal:)
And the younger one, Naqib:)
DIORANG SANGAT COMEL DAN MENGGODA:DD
Sunday, August 24, 2008
coming to terms
Eight more days until 1st September 2008, the day we all have been waiting for.
Show me who did Lucas call.
Show me what will happen to Brooke and Angie.
Show me who is gonna die.
Show me what will happen to Dan.
Show me whether whoever Lucas called will follow him to Las Vegas.
Show me what will happen to Nathan and Haley.
Show me more of Skillz's and Deb's secret affair.
Show me what will happen to Serena and Dan.
Show me what did 'damn that Motherchucker' means.
Show me who was the cougar with a husband Nate slept with.
Show me whether there will be any Serena and Nate.
Show me the meaner part of Mr Chuck.
Show me the bitchier part of Blair.
Show me juicier gossips of the Upper East Siders.
Show me everything!
Show me who did Lucas call.
Show me what will happen to Brooke and Angie.
Show me who is gonna die.
Show me what will happen to Dan.
Show me whether whoever Lucas called will follow him to Las Vegas.
Show me what will happen to Nathan and Haley.
Show me more of Skillz's and Deb's secret affair.
Show me what will happen to Serena and Dan.
Show me what did 'damn that Motherchucker' means.
Show me who was the cougar with a husband Nate slept with.
Show me whether there will be any Serena and Nate.
Show me the meaner part of Mr Chuck.
Show me the bitchier part of Blair.
Show me juicier gossips of the Upper East Siders.
Show me everything!
Saturday, August 23, 2008
25
Let those who are in favour with their stars
Of public honour and proud titles boast,
Whilst I, whom fortune of such triumph bars
Unlook'd for joy in that I honour most.
Great princes' favourites their fair leaves spread
But as the marigold at the sun's eye,
And in themselves their pride lies buried,
For at a frown they in their glory die.
The painful warrior famoused for fight,
After a thousand victories once foiled,
Is from the book of honour razed quite,
And all the rest forgot for which he toiled:
Then happy I, that love and am beloved,
Where I may not remove nor be removed.
Of public honour and proud titles boast,
Whilst I, whom fortune of such triumph bars
Unlook'd for joy in that I honour most.
Great princes' favourites their fair leaves spread
But as the marigold at the sun's eye,
And in themselves their pride lies buried,
For at a frown they in their glory die.
The painful warrior famoused for fight,
After a thousand victories once foiled,
Is from the book of honour razed quite,
And all the rest forgot for which he toiled:
Then happy I, that love and am beloved,
Where I may not remove nor be removed.
Friday, August 15, 2008
lay your hands on me
To have a best friend is a great thing. To have best friends is way better. This year, I learned something important about best friends - they don't have to stick together all the time. We don't have to be together all the time.
These days, I rarely have a good long chat with my best friends. I don't speak much even to Ain and Syiqin. I don't even know why. All of us used to gather everyday and laugh our hearts out. All seven of us. I miss that very much. Us laughing. No hidden tears, no broken hearts, no jealousy, no betrayal. Just happy smiles.
I guess now we all are giving each other spaces. To make new friends. To break free. To become a new person. To discover the person beyond ourselves. To view something new. To breathe.
We all need spaces. We all need time for ourselves. But sometimes, when we're alone and feel like nothing is alright, all we need to do is pick up the phone, dial our best friend's number, and cry.
These days, I rarely have a good long chat with my best friends. I don't speak much even to Ain and Syiqin. I don't even know why. All of us used to gather everyday and laugh our hearts out. All seven of us. I miss that very much. Us laughing. No hidden tears, no broken hearts, no jealousy, no betrayal. Just happy smiles.
I guess now we all are giving each other spaces. To make new friends. To break free. To become a new person. To discover the person beyond ourselves. To view something new. To breathe.
We all need spaces. We all need time for ourselves. But sometimes, when we're alone and feel like nothing is alright, all we need to do is pick up the phone, dial our best friend's number, and cry.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
lights up
Several days ago, I had a crappy dream where the main characters are Dayang and me. It was very crappy I can't stop laughing after I woke up.
I dreamed we're grown-ups, and are already married. But I don't know who our husbands are because it was blurry. We are still best friends, better than ever, and she lives here in KL. Dayang just had her first baby, while I just got married for several months. However, things are not as good as it seems. She had problems in her marriage life and always had arguments with her husband. Therefore, she asked me to take care of her baby for her. As a best friend, I happily accepted the baby in my life. Dayang and her husband finally decided to file for divorce.
Oh, poor baby.
Meanwhile, my marriage life then went on the rocks, too. I remembered when my husband and I argue, the baby will cry.
I don't know what is the ending of the dream because then I heard my sister's voice.
"Adik, bangun semayang Subuh.."
Hampeh punye kak ngah.
I dreamed we're grown-ups, and are already married. But I don't know who our husbands are because it was blurry. We are still best friends, better than ever, and she lives here in KL. Dayang just had her first baby, while I just got married for several months. However, things are not as good as it seems. She had problems in her marriage life and always had arguments with her husband. Therefore, she asked me to take care of her baby for her. As a best friend, I happily accepted the baby in my life. Dayang and her husband finally decided to file for divorce.
Oh, poor baby.
Meanwhile, my marriage life then went on the rocks, too. I remembered when my husband and I argue, the baby will cry.
I don't know what is the ending of the dream because then I heard my sister's voice.
"Adik, bangun semayang Subuh.."
Hampeh punye kak ngah.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
meninggalkan aku sendiri
Inilah antara yang terjadi sekiranya cikgu Bio meninggalkan kami di makmal pada jam 12 tengah hari tanpa sebarang kerja untuk dilakukan:
Sorry Khai..
Sorry Khai..
a change is coming
I've said before, after graduating from college, I'd love to work at Junk. However, after much thinking, I don't think Junk is right for me.
Well, Junk is the magazine of my dream. The magazine I want to publish. The magazine I want to write for. The magazine I want to edit. But well, if I work for them, I think my mom would be worried. I mean, the Junk's kinda wild. At least, wild for her. She even started to be worried when I showed it to her months ago and I said I want to become their team. Haha.
Okay, fine. Maybe Junk is a little too wild for me too.
So, instead of Junk, I have decided to work at KLue after graduating. My mom wouldn't be worried and neither would I:DD
Well, Junk is the magazine of my dream. The magazine I want to publish. The magazine I want to write for. The magazine I want to edit. But well, if I work for them, I think my mom would be worried. I mean, the Junk's kinda wild. At least, wild for her. She even started to be worried when I showed it to her months ago and I said I want to become their team. Haha.
Okay, fine. Maybe Junk is a little too wild for me too.
So, instead of Junk, I have decided to work at KLue after graduating. My mom wouldn't be worried and neither would I:DD
that's why i love you
I was meant to post this earlier. But I was kinda busy and kinda forgot. I was so excited when I read about it in The Star last week I felt like screaming with much joy and happiness because I voted for him too. Okay, here's the news:
"OMG, CHUCK BASS THE CHOICE TV VILLAIN?!"
"OMG, CHUCK BASS THE CHOICE TV VILLAIN?!"
Sunday, August 10, 2008
sweet and low
Is your favourite colour blue?
And do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outer space?
I'm learning you
Is your skin as tan as mine?
Does your hair flow side ways?
Did someone take a portion of your heart?
Now I'm learning you
And if you don't mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
I've let my guard down for you
And in time you will too
And if you don't mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
And if you don't mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
Deeper conversation with me
Deeper conversation
Does your name rhyme with mine?
even better than the real thing
My friend posted this on MySpace this afternoon.
She was slammed after she posted her thoughts about SMKBJ. Well, I think she can write whatever she wants in her blog. Yes, that's right. Whatever. I mean, that's her blog. Suka hati dia la if she wants to bitch about anything around her. If you don't like it, then have your own blog and you can bitch about her yourself.
Tak payah la nak buat kecoh kat blog die plak.
Buat blog,
Aku utarakan pendapat sendiri pun dimaki orang.
Di mana dia, kebebasan bersuara?
Di mana die, hak untuk bersuara?
-------
Sorry.
Kinda mad becaause people keep spamming on my blog
-_-"
Anyways, sorry to the BJ students who may or may not be offended by what I said. It wasn't meant for all of you. Besides, I don't know you people that much. If I do, maybe I'll come around to like you.
:)
|ruka
She was slammed after she posted her thoughts about SMKBJ. Well, I think she can write whatever she wants in her blog. Yes, that's right. Whatever. I mean, that's her blog. Suka hati dia la if she wants to bitch about anything around her. If you don't like it, then have your own blog and you can bitch about her yourself.
Tak payah la nak buat kecoh kat blog die plak.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
because you live
This morning I was told this thing:
Khairani wrote that in her book. I was about to disagree when I began to think back. Yes, I did like to smile. It seems like I have forgotten that.
She sees things differently. That's what I like about her. She sees me from a different point of view. People describes me as a loner. Someone who prefers to be alone instead of joining the crowd. Maybe I am. But she surprised me when she wrote that.
I talk and smile and laugh the most now when I was with her. She's like another way out that I just found. A way out from all the problems I have. I even become wilder when I was with her. I mean, look at our secret wild plan for my 16th. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have any guts to do that.
Thanks, Khairani, for retrieving my smiles and laughters back. You are a great friend:)
I like to smile
Khairani wrote that in her book. I was about to disagree when I began to think back. Yes, I did like to smile. It seems like I have forgotten that.
She sees things differently. That's what I like about her. She sees me from a different point of view. People describes me as a loner. Someone who prefers to be alone instead of joining the crowd. Maybe I am. But she surprised me when she wrote that.
I talk and smile and laugh the most now when I was with her. She's like another way out that I just found. A way out from all the problems I have. I even become wilder when I was with her. I mean, look at our secret wild plan for my 16th. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have any guts to do that.
Thanks, Khairani, for retrieving my smiles and laughters back. You are a great friend:)
Monday, August 4, 2008
things happen for a reason
Why I cry on July 25th, 2008:
1. This year's birthday celebration was way different from last year's
2. Lots of problems with BFFs
3. Lots of promises broken
4. People all around disappointed me
5. People keeps me waiting and waiting
6. Hopes being broken
7. Fear of being alone, again
8. Fear of the old nightmare might be coming back
9. Worries about the future
10. Lots of misunderstandings
11. Jealousy that led to getting further apart from them
12. Fear of being left out
13. Fear of being betrayed, again
14. Fear of will never be understood
15. Fear of getting my heart broken all over again
16. Fear of losing everything
17. Fear of having to wait forever
1. This year's birthday celebration was way different from last year's
2. Lots of problems with BFFs
3. Lots of promises broken
4. People all around disappointed me
5. People keeps me waiting and waiting
6. Hopes being broken
7. Fear of being alone, again
8. Fear of the old nightmare might be coming back
9. Worries about the future
10. Lots of misunderstandings
11. Jealousy that led to getting further apart from them
12. Fear of being left out
13. Fear of being betrayed, again
14. Fear of will never be understood
15. Fear of getting my heart broken all over again
16. Fear of losing everything
17. Fear of having to wait forever
Friday, August 1, 2008
hate is safer than love
This morning after recess I entered the class and she's standing right in front of of her table (which is very close to the door), drinking water. And there I was, just entered without even glancing at her. As I walk to my table, I heard she slammed her bottle, as if she was very pissed off.
As if I wasn't.
Peduli ape aku. I'm moving on with my life. With or without you.
As if I wasn't.
Peduli ape aku. I'm moving on with my life. With or without you.
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